my blog, my feeling

Last week heard from lecturer that there is some people plagiarism in blog this coursework.

I like to write blog since secondary school, really can’t understand why those people hate this coursework.

For me, this is not really a coursework… At least want me to say which is must write it in English.

But indeed, it is good for me to improve my English without any stress.

Even I can release stress by writing blog, that’s why I like to write blog because am not a person like to speak out everything I don’t like to, so I can speak something I actually want to discuss about.

However, there is a problem which is my blog become quite a lot of bad moods post. Is it will affect my readers don’t like to read my blog? 

Gonna make that change?!

Sometimes it’s good to having some changes. We can have something new to feel too. Not always being together with the same group of person, not always the same appearance.

When we gather with another group of people, we will tend to see and stand at another side also.  We will have another opinion and behaviour although every other thing is still the same.

I like to do it so. It may totally change my mood of the whole day.

When I feel today is a special day for me, or…I hope to have a more special day, I will tend to wear something different way than usual. For me, I think this is quite effective.

To be better...

I can’t believe it is week 12 now, which means that my sem 2 is almost end.

Hope that next sem life could reach my expectation.

I’m still waiting for Chinese orchestra to learn cello. They said next sem will having recruitment for cello class. I’ve been waiting to learn cello for a long time. It was before I choosing universities, I had already thinking of this. This is because co-curriculum really is something important for me. It is no life for me if I’m just keep studying. But until now I’m really just keep studying without join any clubs.

Next sem can choose to learn a foreign language too! This is what makes me excited. Finally I can learn Japanese in class. Hope I could learn something different in the class than what I have learnt before. And also..make friends have a same interest with me, even only have one is enough.

I hope it is something different life for me to change my dull life now…

Picture from Greystones Music Academy
Link: http://greystonesmusicacademy.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/02/cello1.jpeg

Change is become better or just be myself?

I realize I had much different between before I enter UTAR and after I enter UTAR. I easier felt lonely after I come UTAR.
Felt like actually nobody really knows and cares about me.

They won’t care about if someday I'm not together with them. Sometimes I will have this feeling but this is just what I think, actually not really is the truth.

I don’t know, but I'm a person really care about others opinion although I don’t show my reaction. Then, I tried to improve myself to react more emotion to friends but I realize again, why I feel I don’t really act like myself now?

I just like changing my personality for others people?

Is it good if I have something change? I don’t know whether is it better if I just be myself or I should change something from myself? 

Not everyone have empathy

Recently, I'm doing an assignment about to write an attitude. I have chosen empathy as my topic.

It is unacceptable that some people think we must help the others when we can? 

And why should I?

If don’t share things or help them so I will become a stingy person?!

I’ll help people when it is still in my ability to help. And of course …

Isn't it should I help them? I think their attitude whilst getting help from others people are important for me to evaluate whether should I help. 

And also…

Did they really try their best to do but really can’t achieve? 

If not, I don’t think I should suppose to help them.

I am doing my best

I hate those peoples who look down of my ability.

Why they haven’t check what have I done but they already think I won’t do it well?

 I have always no confident with myself but when I decide to do something. I’ll try my best and really do it as prefects as I can because I don’t like to make others feels I'm not serious to do something when they request from my help.

It makes me no more confident to do those things when I've been look down by others.

I know I should do better to prove to them. However it becomes more difficult to me when I heard those bad comments to me.

Who is my real friend?

Is it the one you always talk with is your best friend?

I don’t think so.

Am I acting as fake?

When my friend asked me who is the one that I feel I'm being the most comfortable with of surrounding me. I told her with the answer of the one I didn't really talk so much with.

I didn't act to friend with those I don’t like but if they try to be friend with me, of course I will talk with them more than those I feel they are kind.

Nothing reason, I just didn't try to be the one more active in making friends.

So, sometimes the friend I admire or like them so much but actually they are not my best friend.

But I wish to friend with them in someday.